Dad, next time you get heartburn
I’ll get some cold water
and pour it on your chest
It was dark. I was drawing on
Gavin’s back with my finger
Helping him to fall asleep
Gavin turned towards me
I felt a cool push of air on my chest
Does that help?
He’s seven and has more compassion than any adult I know
-M. Taggart
Screaming Hills – Chapter 1
Written by -M. Taggart
“What can burn your thoughts, can burn your soul.” Nick tossed a rock over the edge of the cliff. He listened carefully as the rock hit the side of the cliff face. He didn’t hear it land at the bottom.
“What the hell does that mean? You should write that down.” Rick stepped on his cigarette. Smoke spilled from his nostrils as he spoke.
“It means whatever you’d like for it to mean. Have you ever noticed how people are in this town? Not all, but most. The depressed expressions with sunken eyes and an edge of hostility in their walk?” Nick opened his arms wide with his palms up. They stood at the top of Indian’s Leap, the town overlook. One side consisted of the entire view of their home town, The Falls. The other side was a view of their High School rivals, Little-Vegas, as they liked to call it. “It’s as if they’ve given up.”
It was noon. The sun was too hot to not be under shade. Rick knew the heat of the sun wouldn’t keep Nick from standing in this one spot for the next hour. Sweat would soak both of them and their shirts would stick to their backs and he knew Nick wouldn’t move. He’d stand there and look at the town.
“I guess. Maybe I’m one of them. I don’t know. There’s not much money in either of these towns. The paper mills went under years ago and now they sit and rot. What’s to be happy about?”
“Isn’t that just it though?” Nick smiled.
“Don’t go on one of your rants. Come on, let’s get down and find a place out of the sun.”
“It’s funny. When I’m asked a question, I expect that I’m expected to answer the question. You asked. Now I answer. How about the corn fields. How about the next strong thunder storm, or the wind that comes with it, or the rain that drenches the fields which creates the corn. All this corn throughout this valley and the sweet smell it spreads and no one can find a reason to love this? No one but maybe the farmer? But! We know the farmers’ kids, and they are dealing, and walk with their sunken eyes and spread nothing but filth and hate along with a deadly addiction. So the happiness stopped with the farmer who created the sweet smelling corn and begs the skies to open and dump beauty on his fields; only to be crushed to a stop by his off springs’ inability to accept happiness. Does that sum it nicely for you?”
Rick lit another cigarette, inhaled fully, and again smoke vacated through his nostrils. “You won’t be here much longer will you?”
“I’ll stand here longer. But no, I will not stay in this town. I argue with myself. I’d like to stay and conquer my back yard. I’ve read and heard how important it is to do this before leaving. Otherwise you chase what you had failed to accomplish. But, I doubt this is true because if it were than no one would ever be anywhere without having failed first. I also think most of the people who say this only say it to sound as though they’ve put true thought into the statement. And from what I see, people are full of shit. I want to develop as a person and I’m sure I’ll stunt my development if I don’t leave. I want to walk in a town that lives on hope and feel what that might taste like. Do you see?”
“I get it. You asked me a question. I need to answer. But you asked if I see. Yes, I see, but I don’t understand. How can you feel what hope might taste like?”
“I only said that to be sure you were listening. Actually, it’s like this; what if hope was chicken soup made from scratch served at a restaurant that was loved by the town. What if the chef was a grandmother who had ten grandchildren and those grandchildren stopped in from time to time to have the chicken soup. What if the grandchildren loved their grandmother so much they hoped she might live until she was one hundred and twenty and what if each time they stepped into the restaurant they said a prayer asking for just that. And then, they order the chicken soup.”
Nick’s face was tense. Rick knew it wasn’t easy for Nick. How Nick expressed himself with words was a fraction of what Nick felt inside. He’d seen Nick turn to the Nick that the others talked about. Feared. “You know, this time, I think I do understand. And yes, I’d order that soup. And I’d taste hope. I get it.”
“Then why can’t the people of this town get that corn is their fucking chicken soup. They are blessed with the most fertile valley in all of New England. The fucking river rushed over its fucking edges so many times in the past that it’s literally farmland handed to them by God and they don’t see it. They don’t get it. They smash their bodies with heroin and coke and whatever other drugs they can get. And they fall into what they consider normal for any small town with its mills gone. And they die. They all fucking die.”
Rick watched as Nick’s face transformed from tense to focused and angry and relaxed again. The sun was still too hot. And their shirts were now sticking to them. But he’d stand right here with Nick and the both of them wouldn’t be going anywhere, just yet.
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Published by, Z publishing House.
Next Chapter coming soon
When all the bartenders
are robots
will they understand then?
-M. Taggart
It sucks being ahead
Of a humanitarian experience
by two years
the waiting is haunting
-M. Taggart
I hope you all have a good day today, and please, watch out for those distractions.
They tripped me up for a minute.
Even if you tell yourself that you’re going to enjoy coffee, or tea, or a morning car ride- someone sends a
text and the moment you tried planning for yourself, that moment that you desperately need and continue to let slip away- Don’t let it slip away.
I’m going to be ignoring all the right texts, calls, emails etc.
It’s time. I have to remind myself that it’s ok to give to myself.
Also, I need to update my blog…any suggestions? It’s been a long while since I’ve even looked at new templates. I know that I need a template that will help highlight photography.
My soul is calling for more creativity. Too much noise causes too much noise. Creativity, for me, helps expedite healing.
Seriously, to anyone out there reading this, I’d appreciate any feedback on possible updated blog templates.
Thank you,
Matt
It’s amazing-
that we can ignore
our higher-self
-M. Taggart
I saw a smile today looking at another with only things to include why, and to which a bringing of a moment would be. I didn’t see the smile, sadly. I hoped to. And inside, while driving through the streets,
I wanted the pounded down paint to evade and to think and peel itself to no-more so it could be again.
-M. Taggart
the road followed a river. The river followed a fox and the fox followed a man. Asking. Haven’t we seen this before asked the fox, to the road, to the river, to the fox again and to the man with a sensible mind to bend- isn’t it too much for any river-fox to ask a man to answer a fox who follows men with roads following men to answer.
-M. Taggart
The other side of my thought
was better than me
and I’m fine with that
-M. Taggart
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