You can come for a ride with me, but it’s not going to be like most rides. We’ll find the old dirt roads with not much to see. Woods, streams, mountains, and more dirt roads steadied with ruts and bumps and dust. The windows will be down. Wind will stream inside one and out the other. And the conversation might be about who visited who in which dream and what had been said and the possibilities of why. Or, we won’t talk. Instead we might listen to the chirping of the birds. Or, if we’re lucky the rumbling of a thunderstorm will tickle our imaginations until finally it hits and the dusty dirt road becomes a slippery mud pit. If the storm is bad enough, and the wind strong enough, a few branches might come down, even a tree. That’s OK though. We have rope and a chain saw, and besides, the story just got better. Thanks for coming on these rides, Dad. Even though you’re gone, I still talk with you. Sorry about the yelling- Sometimes you do feel a bit too far away.
It’s a dark, rainy day in New England.
I rather enjoy it, and I think when Gavin
wakes from his nap that I’ll bundle him up
and take us for a simple drive on some
old dirt road so that he can enjoy it too.
We rode in my GMC. It’s a truck. We smoked cigars. A lot of them. Some of them were small and some were big. Like the mountains we were driving in. It’s easy to become lost in the North Woods. There are hundreds of miles of wilderness. No lights. You can drive and drive and see nothing but forest and Moose. I capitalized that for fun. Sometimes we would stop and have a beer. We’d get out of the truck and someone might say, “It is time for a beer?” None of us would look at the time.
I love those old roads. The dust. The freedom. I smash my mind thinking I know what real freedom is and how it’ll ruin this writing now but I’ll write it anyway. Freedom is being debt free. That means all debt. And to shed mental debt is the most difficult kind. So, when I drive the old roads, and pull over for the massive logging trucks, and we whistle to the old Golden Road, I am as free as I’m going to be in that moment.